depressed

[low_delta]

I was telling a friend, earlier today, that the way I keep depression at bay is to keep busy. Don't think, just do. Aside from the obvious benefit of not having time to let things bother you, you accomplish things and end up feeling a little better.

Right now I'm having troble with that. I have a huge task in front of me and I don't know what to do. So I stand there and try to figure it out, and end up (1) thinking about not getting it done, and (2) not getting it done.

I've got the carpet scheduled to be installed on friday. I have to get the molding in before that. I got one coat of varnish on some of the molding. I need to paint some more. I need to get some wood cut to back up the molding. And paint it. I need to paint various parts of the apartment. I need to buy a door. I need to put it in. And I need to put all of that molding in around the doors and along the floor in four rooms.

I wanted to do some of that work tonight, but I didn't have the tools I needed. ~frustration~ I drove down to Cyn's place to get them. That made me feel a little better - I was actually doing something (even if I was sitting in the car for over an hour). I got back after 11:00.

Maybe tomorrow night I can get some actual work done.

Comments

[serendipity.livejournal.com]

You mean Cyn's *old* place. Right now her place is your place. :)

Anyway, I'm sorry you're struggling with keeping depression at bay by keeping busy. It all sounds truly frustrating.

I'm actually the opposite: being too busy all the time makes me depressed. I'd way rather have less to do and just zone out sometimes.

I'm taking a vacation leave this week, which will hopefully include balancing getting stuff done and what I really need to do the most: relaxing.

[low-delta.livejournal.com]

Where we live now is "our place." Cyn's old house is "Cyn's house." :-)

I didn't quite say in the post, but what's getting me down right now is that I have a deadline I'm not sure I'm able to meet, I'm not able to keep working on it for various reasons, and mostly that I'm not sure what I'm doing.

Normally, doing things makes me feel good. I get a sense of accomplishment that lasts longer than the enjoyment I get out of watching a movie (as an example). This time, it's counterproductive.

[serendipity.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I understand that. I'm just wondering if you've been doing so much on the houses for so long that it might be why it's counterproductive now. I dunno. *Not* doing things makes me feel good, but too many things require doing. Now that I took R to school, I'm going to take one long nap to start this vacation off right.

[marswalker.livejournal.com]

hang in there... and keep taking it one step at a time. And enjoy a little sunshine each day if you can. It's key to good health.

[emschin.livejournal.com]

Is there anything but the molding jobs that needs to be done before the carpet. I think we think differently, but I feel better and less overwhelmed when I can cut tasks into pieces and not think of the whole.

Good luck!