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traditions and addiction
Aug. 24th, 2016 09:19 pmHere's something I wrote ten years ago. I made only one tiny change.
I don't have many addictions. Or habits. Or rituals or traditions.
They bother me. I don't like being held prisoner by something that doesn't necessarily make sense. I don't smoke. There's no little thing I always have to do just because I always do it. For example, I don't care for the idea of always sleeping on the same side of the bed. I lose a small bit of control of myself when I find myself relying on something being a certain way.
If I do something the same way every time, there should be a good reason for it. I always drive on the right side of the road, because to do otherwise is not worth the fines. I take that back - I don't always drive on the right side of the road. Um... I follow very closely a certain routine in the morning because that's what gets me out of the house the fastest. I sit in the same place at the table every night because Cyn always sits in the other place. I always undo my seatbelt before turning the car off, because then I won't have my keys in my hand when I'm trying to undo the buckle.
Wedding receptions? I hhate wedding receptions. Too many things you have to do just because everybody expects them. You have to toss the garter. And you have do the chicken dance. And Steve has to have the DJ play "Another One Bites the Dust." And you have to mash cake in each other's faces. And you have to kiss when everyone rings their glasses. Of course, many people will say that these things aren't done just as traditions. You do all that stuff because it's fun. Well... yes and no. They survived as traditions because a lot of people thought they were fun, but the reason we do them is because we have to. And if we don't, we are questioned.
Christmas is full of traditions and rituals. Not for me. Christmas is nice because there are decorations and we get together with the family, but for me there's no it just isn't Christmas without...
I'm not completely immune. I'm sure I have some habits that are for no good reason, and that I don't notice or have forgotten about. And I have had my own little traditions (I used to always play Crosby Still & Nash on shuffle. Why? Just because I always did), but I can't think of any current ones. I'm sure Cyn will remind me. And I am addicted to the internet. I just can't turn off the computer.
I don't have many addictions. Or habits. Or rituals or traditions.
They bother me. I don't like being held prisoner by something that doesn't necessarily make sense. I don't smoke. There's no little thing I always have to do just because I always do it. For example, I don't care for the idea of always sleeping on the same side of the bed. I lose a small bit of control of myself when I find myself relying on something being a certain way.
If I do something the same way every time, there should be a good reason for it. I always drive on the right side of the road, because to do otherwise is not worth the fines. I take that back - I don't always drive on the right side of the road. Um... I follow very closely a certain routine in the morning because that's what gets me out of the house the fastest. I sit in the same place at the table every night because Cyn always sits in the other place. I always undo my seatbelt before turning the car off, because then I won't have my keys in my hand when I'm trying to undo the buckle.
Wedding receptions? I hhate wedding receptions. Too many things you have to do just because everybody expects them. You have to toss the garter. And you have do the chicken dance. And Steve has to have the DJ play "Another One Bites the Dust." And you have to mash cake in each other's faces. And you have to kiss when everyone rings their glasses. Of course, many people will say that these things aren't done just as traditions. You do all that stuff because it's fun. Well... yes and no. They survived as traditions because a lot of people thought they were fun, but the reason we do them is because we have to. And if we don't, we are questioned.
Christmas is full of traditions and rituals. Not for me. Christmas is nice because there are decorations and we get together with the family, but for me there's no it just isn't Christmas without...
I'm not completely immune. I'm sure I have some habits that are for no good reason, and that I don't notice or have forgotten about. And I have had my own little traditions (I used to always play Crosby Still & Nash on shuffle. Why? Just because I always did), but I can't think of any current ones. I'm sure Cyn will remind me. And I am addicted to the internet. I just can't turn off the computer.
