depressed

I was telling a friend, earlier today, that the way I keep depression at bay is to keep busy. Don't think, just do. Aside from the obvious benefit of not having time to let things bother you, you accomplish things and end up feeling a little better.

Right now I'm having troble with that. I have a huge task in front of me and I don't know what to do. So I stand there and try to figure it out, and end up (1) thinking about not getting it done, and (2) not getting it done.

I've got the carpet scheduled to be installed on friday. I have to get the molding in before that. I got one coat of varnish on some of the molding. I need to paint some more. I need to get some wood cut to back up the molding. And paint it. I need to paint various parts of the apartment. I need to buy a door. I need to put it in. And I need to put all of that molding in around the doors and along the floor in four rooms.

I wanted to do some of that work tonight, but I didn't have the tools I needed. ~frustration~ I drove down to Cyn's place to get them. That made me feel a little better - I was actually doing something (even if I was sitting in the car for over an hour). I got back after 11:00.

Maybe tomorrow night I can get some actual work done.

from the convention (per CNN)

Former New York Mayor Rudy Giuliani said Bush "sees world terrorism for the evil that it is," while Democratic opponent John Kerry has no such clear vision.

I was going to try not to complain about the GOP PR convention, because its whole purpose is to make Bush sound like a great guy. You know they're going to exaggerate a lot. But what in the fuck is that supposed to mean? Kerry doesn't see a problem with terrorism?!!

Fuck you Rudy.

gone

Cyn's cat, Galadriel died yesterday.

I'm not exactly a "pet person," but I liked her. She was kinda cranky in her old age, but she was still a dignified cat.