disappointed

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I've spent the last week or so cleaning every chance I've gotten. I took thursday off work to clean. I got the living room mostly done. What I couldn't find a place for was piled in the kitchen. I was gone all weekend, so I didn't have a chance to work on the kitchen until last night. I didn't get much done. I didn't get the bathroom cleaned either.

This is all important because Cindy is moving in tonight. I'm going down there after work, and we're bringing her clothes and personal effects (sounds like she's getting out of prison) here. Also her cats.

This is it. Those of you who have been married may feel that getting married is a bigger change than is moving in with a mate, but that's the way I see it now. I mean, I've never even had a roommate (unless you count my mom and sister).

We're a bit disappointed that we have to do it this way. Neither of us wanted to move into the other's home. Not only does she have to move into my home, but she can bring very little of her things along to help make it hers. She's leaving most of her stuff behind to make the house look lived in, when we sell it.

I'm disappointed that I haven't been able to get the place cleaned up. Because of the effort we've put into fixing up her house, and my own remodeling, the mess in my home has gotten out of hand. It's the worst it's been since I moved in. Since she's got to move into my house, I thought the least I could do was make it nice for her.

*sigh*

So I've been trying to clean. I think there's room for her stuff, but the bathroom and kitchen aren't clean, yet. I don't think I've cat-proofed the house very well. The sunporch is so piled with crap, you can hardly walk through it. Same with the basement. I need to go through it and throw away tons of stuff. Or box it up at the very least. Maybe I'll have a chance to do that after we get all the remodeling done (but I have to make a place for the litter boxes now). The garage just makes me cringe every time I open it. I wasn't able to clean it last year. At all. I was rather embarassed to learn that my future mother-in-law, sister-in-law and stepdaughter saw it.

My great-uncle Ray (judgmental, stubborn, narrow minded, bible-belt preacher) has been harassing us for two years about getting married. The best excuse we could come up with for waiting (aside from "go jump in a lake") was that we were waiting until we could get a proper home. He said we shouldn't wait for that. If we loved each other, that's all that mattered, and we should live in a tent if we had to. I feel almost like he's vindicated. It's better than a tent, but it's sure not what it could have been.

And my mom isn't any help either. She's always saying how Cyn will be keeping the house in shape. As in, for my whole life, I've never been able to keep a room clean, apparently. I'm fairly certain I can. But I need to prove that to her (just to shut her up, if for no other reason). It would have been nice to have her stop by tomorrow night and see the place. Too bad it won't be clean until after Cyn has lived there for a while. Mom will feel vindicated too.

I feel that my most important task as a husband will be treat Cindy like she deserves, and I'm disappointed that I'm not doing very well, and here it is the first day of your new life together.

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