Everything is pissing me off today. At least everything that I'm thinking about. Why am I stuck thinking about the things that piss me off? Maybe because I have time to think? (I mowed the lawn tonight.) That must be it - stop thinking and feel better. >:-(
Some of them are things that only marginally affect me, and that I shouldn't let bother me. Some of them are things I've already fucked up and no longer have control over. Some of them are things that wouldn't normally bother me, but for some reason I'm down right now.
Which also makes me unhappy, because I can't figure out why I'm in such a rotten mood. Stress, right? Of what? Trying to get ready for this party. Some stress. Work? I think it's only bothering me because I'm easily bothered. I am fighting illness.
I don't know what the hell is going on.
Some of them are things that only marginally affect me, and that I shouldn't let bother me. Some of them are things I've already fucked up and no longer have control over. Some of them are things that wouldn't normally bother me, but for some reason I'm down right now.
Which also makes me unhappy, because I can't figure out why I'm in such a rotten mood. Stress, right? Of what? Trying to get ready for this party. Some stress. Work? I think it's only bothering me because I'm easily bothered. I am fighting illness.
I don't know what the hell is going on.
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Date: 2006-07-06 05:31 am (UTC)From:Were you already in a mood before mowing? Could it be the mowing is part of it? (allergens - pollens and mold spores, etc; and pollution if it's a gas mower - could affect your mood...)
Of course... this all just adds onto the fighting illness thing. When I'm physically down, it doesn't take much to put me in a bad emotional / mental mood too.
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Date: 2006-07-06 01:48 pm (UTC)From:Are you normally 'easily bothered'?
I hate being crabby. It's very abnormal for me. So when it happens, I really notice...as does everyone else in the house. So far *knock on wood* my crabby moods have been rare and short-lived.
You're doing a good thing with your crabby energy....physical work. Playing/creating also helps, so take some time for that.
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Date: 2006-07-06 05:42 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-07-06 09:31 pm (UTC)From:in 2003 when my body went bezerk without my permission, i thought i was handling stress just fine. my body/mind felt otherwise.
i hope you're feeling better today. drink lots of water and occupy your mind with positive things :)
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Date: 2006-07-07 03:48 am (UTC)From:Some things can make me feel better for a while. Like seeing a Brian May solo. And I talked with a couple of friends to inght, which was good.
Thanks dear. I'm sorry you're not feeling so hot now either.